Gamer Girls

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=89GieMg6zWI

0:00 – Fuck.  She’s completely out to lunch.  Just watch this.  Watch the first three seconds.  This is a fucking mental case.  You can see it IMMEDIATELY.  

So she’s running down the reasons why she left Youtube.

0:15 – “Way back in the day, some girls in my grad program told on me because I was being a ‘sexy gamer grrl’ online.”

Well…she did use air quotes around “sexy gamer grrl” so I can’t criticise her for that.  

“So that was a big no no and that really put a halt on a lot of my plans.”

Yeah, people have speculated on this.  Having an OnlyFans can’t be good for one’s career as a psychologist or psychiatists.  

Maybe it shouldn’t be a problem.  I don’t know about psychiatry or whatever but if my general practitioner also had an OnlyFans…what do I care?  As long as she’s competent at her job.

But the real issue here is that SupaPixelGirl is on OnlyFans because she’s mentally ill.  It’s not OnlyFans that’s the problem, it’s her mental illness.  I don’t want a crazy person as my psychiatrist or psychologist.  

I’m not saying that you have to be insane to be on OnlyFans.  You can make a rational decision about this.  For example, Madam Fomo seems perfectly sane to me.  But she’s a prostitute so she started an OnlyFans.  I get it.  

But watch any SupaPixelGirl video and you immediately see that this is a woman with real problems.  This is somebody struggling with mental illness.  She makes Bobdunga look like a model of good mental health.  

This is what people should be concerned about.  

Oh…I paused the video too early.  It put a halt to a lot of her plans…”for this channel”.  So it didn’t even have an impact on her career.  

Something like this, it brings disrepute on the profession.  How can somebody who clearly has serious mental health problems pass all the necessary checks to get her license to practice psychiatry or psychology?  It calls into question how stringent (or not stringent) these checks are.  

Her second reason…I can’t type it all out because she’s rambling…but she’s telling this story about how some “Youtuber” tried to have sex with her.  YEARS ago.  

1:30 – “That happened to me more than I’d like to admit.”

Oh.  So it’s more than one person.  I think that Mike Matei was identified as one of these alleged…I don’t even know what the term would be.  A guy trying to have sex with “Youtubers”.  Frankly, who cares?  Here’s how this discussion should go:

Mike: Hey, SupaPixelGirl.  Want to have sex?

SupaPixelGirl: No.

Mike: Okay.  I’ll try with that Erin person instead.

No big deal.  

“Not playing the victim here.”

That’s exactly what she’s doing.  She’s going back up to seven years ago.  She said it happened as far back as when she started the channel as a 21 year old.  There are creepy guys out there trying to have sex.  With anyone.  This is news?  You tell them that you’re not interested.  Problem solved.

“Also really got tapped into supporting women in gaming.”

Speaking of which let me just check…is John Riggs the top comment?

No.  He didn’t comment at all.  He’s slipping.  But somebody left a comment saying, “Nice wig.”  It’s true but I didn’t want to mention it.  She’s wearing some weird pink wig.  All part of the craziness.

“But I got a little burned on my way there.  It’s a hard community to be in.”

She’s complaining that other women didn’t accept her in the Youtube…whatever…gamer grrl community.  

Yeah, you don’t have to be an expert on the female psyche to know the problem here.  Women don’t like women who take their clothes off for money.  Because now these women have to compete.  And they don’t want to take their clothes off for money.  

It debases everyone.  There are women out there who are genuinely interested in video games and they just want to make videos on the subject without relying on sex appeal.  They should be able to do that.  But it’s difficult because you have all of these skanks out here, many of whom are total frauds, ruining it for women everywhere.

When I want to look at naked women, I’ll look at naked women.  But I don’t want to fucking see it in videos about video games.  But there are losers out there, who for whatever reason don’t have access to Pornhub, who are watching this trash.  

2:00 – “I’ve also had experiences with people who are extremely narcissistic and use people.”

The irony.

3:45 – “Even though I’ve been gone for so long, you guys are still interacting with me on Twitter and Instagram.  A lot of you are on my OnlyFans.”

I don’t even know what we’re supposed to be taking away from this.

4:30 – “To whoever watches my Lets Plays, thank you and I’m going to continue to do it even when I grow old and I’m not ‘cute'”

That ship has sailed.

But this is another obsession of hers.  Not being attractive.  It’s all tied to her mental illness.

5:15 – Then she shows her cat.  I could have made a vagina joke here but that’s low-hanging fruit.

That’s the video.  Final thoughts…well, I feel unsettled.  That’s common when you speak to somebody with mental illness or watch a video from a person with mental illness.  It’s just…it’s somebody with a diseased mind and that causes unease.  I don’t know the psychological explanation but maybe SupaPixelGirl can help.

Oh, I’m just reading the video description:

If you want to support my channel, I encourage you to donate to my favorite charity instead, Pediatric Cancer Research Fund: http://whatever. Some viewers have sent me screen shots of their donations and that really makes my day.

I just thought of how funny it would be if somebody would make a fake screenshot of them donating like $10,000 or something.  Maybe I’m a sick person as well for thinking that.  

https://twitter.com/SupaNintendoGrl/status/1304569220986961922.

What I like about making music is no one is judging me for my appearance, how many views I get, who I know in the industry. YouTube can be a very toxic place in many ways (also wonderful people on the platform too!!) but when it’s not your job and more of an escape

 –the pay off isn’t great. Like my IRL job is stressful and HARD WORK the last thing I need is for my creative escape to be a place toxic etc. I’ve been so much better since I stepped away

https://twitter.com/SupaNintendoGrl/status/1307135819191398405

Why did I change my name so many times? (Supanintendogirl, supapixelgirl, queenofrabites, etc) I was being threatened and bullied by girls in my grad program saying they’d ruin my life.

People are fond of saying that things are “toxic” and it’s true that some people are needlessly insulting. But maybe you’re the problem.  Maybe if you wouldn’t do insane shit, you wouldn’t attract so much criticism.

On the one hand, she’s mentally ill so perhaps has diminished responsibility.  But on the other hand, she’s in the mental health profession.  So she has both the knowledge that she might be unhealthy and the resources to get help.  

She’s already uploaded another video.  It’s a completely batshit crazy, sexually-explicit TikTok that she did.  I’ve only managed to watch a small part of it before I had to turn it off.  It’s more insanity.  When I’m feeling better, maybe I’ll do a review on it but there’s only so much craziness that one can endure at once.