0:00 – “Welcome to a different type of a video.”
What are you talking about? Every time I go to this fucking channel, she has some bullshit video where she’s drawing disgusting shit and talking about her mental health her “meds” and how unattractive she is but oh please go to my OnlyFans.
By the way, this video is a “fundraiser”. For her own narcissism. That’s what she’s raising funds for. And unbelieveably, she got $788 for this vile, self-obsessed bullshit.
She’s drawing a disgusting picture of a person with a crooked neck and blood spurting out, by the way. And it’s REALLY amateur. She can’t even fucking draw. This is a professional artist. Does she still do that spin “art”? Let me check.
https://www.etsy.com/shop/DysmorphicArt
There’s her self-obsessed Etsy page. She last sold some terrible spin “art” in December so that wasn’t that long ago. But nothing is available now.
And her Instagram is just revolting pictures of herself with the odd terrible and disgusting drawing.
0:15 – “Don’t worry, this isn’t a drama or a ‘T’ video.”
What? What’s a “T video”? Did I mishear her?
“I just really feel the need to express myself and reflect on some of the branching paths that my life has formed lately.”
You couldn’t do that without the scam fundraising? And I’m looking at the sidebar where this allegedly goes to a suicide prevention charity. Hopefully, Youtube deals with all of that directly, otherwise you know it’s just going into PushingUpRoses’ pocket and then she’s gorging herself on Twinkies with that money.
Do they even make Twinkies any more? I always hated them. Zingers were clearly superior.
It seems that Twinkied were briefly unavailable in 2012 when Hostess declared bankruptcy but they’re back now. I don’t get it. Who’s eating that shit? Zingers are still sold. I only liked the vanilla ones. Apparently, Hostess makes those too.
0:30 – “After many years, I found out that I have BPD or Borderline Personality Disorder.”
Well, great. But this shouldn’t be confused with her “BDD” or “Body Dysmorphic Disorder.” These acronyms are all getting complicated: BPD, BDD, IBS.
Oh, and the last time I talked about PushingUpRoses, she was talking endlessly about some boyfriend. I guarantee that guy’s no longer in the picture.
0:45 – “It does explain why I keep relapsing with addition issues.”
What addiction issues? Addicted to that deep dish pizza. For her own safety, she’s been banned from Pizzeria Uno.
“I feel like I don’t know who I am.”
A self-absorbed bitch. I just saved you thousands of dollars in therapy bills.
Oh, by the way, there as no “trigger warning” for any of this. That’s something that these self-absorbed types usually plaster all over their shit. She’s talking about suicide and these drawings are absolutely disgusting and suggestive of suicide but that’s alright. No concern for her audience, which I have to assume includes other self-obsessed “Look at me, aren’t I crazy” types because these sort of people tend to find each other.
2:00 – “I’m not ashamed of having mental issues.”
No shit. You revel in it. It’s your entire identity. If a therapist ever said, “Eh, you’re fine” it would destroy you.
3:30 – “Addiction does run in my family and it goes between drugs, alcohol, gambling, and food.”
I’m guessing mostly food.
“My sister struggles with a gambling addiction.”
Oh, I’m sure she appreciates you sharing that. Her sister is down at the casino slumped over a slot machine when suddenly her phone blows up with messages from friends and family. “Did you see your sister’s latest self-obsessed video? Do you have a gambling addiction? Do you need help?” Then her sister throws her bucket of tokens down in disgust and says, “God damn it. I just came here to get away from that lunatic for a few hours.”
Actually, do they still use tokens in casinos? I don’t think so. I think it’s all done by cards nowadays. I worked in casinos back in the day and there would be Chinese people who would put “slugs” in the machines. Fake tokens. Those wacky Chinese. Good food, though.
Then PushingUpRoses goes on and on about how her sister would borrow money and lie about its purpose and then go to the casino with the money. What the fuck? Keep this shit to yourself.
4:15 – She starts talking about Amy Winehouse and empathizing with her alleged mental illness.
Amy Winehouse will always hold a special place in my heart as the only celebrity death I ever relished. She was in the news CONSTANTLY and she was annoying as fucking shit. You couldn’t get away from it. And then when she died, I was elated. “I never have to see or hear anything about this woman ever again.” It was a dream come true.
I’m sympathetic and all. She may have had problems and she’s not responsible for the media’s bizarre obsession over her but I can’t deny that I was delighted when she died. One of the best days of my life.
5:30 – Now she’s talking about her “career” by which she means her “art”, her “writing”, and editing her Youtube videos. She wonders if she’ll do that five years from now.
Isn’t she saving any money? How much money is she getting from her channel. Let’s check SocialBlade.
According to this, she’s making between $1,000 and $18,000 a year. I’ve read that the number in the middle is about right so she’s making $9,000 a year. That’s a lot less than I thought.
Well, just crank out some more spin “art”. I can’t find prices but I remember being at least a few hundred bucks each.
It seems that she’s been lowering the prices. Maybe she’s saturated the spin “art” market.
I don’t know what, if any, writing she’s doing and if she’s getting paid anything for it.
What about her OnlyFans then? Is that still an ongoing enterprise?
Eugh. Lamentably, yes. $8.50/month but her description SCREAMS, “Do not pay for this.” So I can’t imagine that there are many subscribers.
5:30 – Anyway, her new career path is…ceramics. She think that she’s going to make a fortune churning out little pots. She’s taking classes. It’s complete insanity. Have you considered filling out a job application at Dominick’s? They probably give you a staff discount on all food purchased there.
I just realised that this ceramics thing is similar to her spin “art”. Her spin “art” involves spinning a canvas on a wheel and dripping paint on the canvas. Ceramics also involves spinning the wheel. Maybe she just likes spinning things. What can she do with that? Whirling dervish? I doubt there’s much money in that. And she doesn’t have the stamina. Maybe she can just sit in an office chair and spin around, although who would pay for that “performance” is another question.
6:45 – Oh my god, look at these things. I don’t know art but I know crap. This is crap. Absolute rock bottom, amateur bullshit. These are two crudely made, crudely painted pieces of ceramic. And she wants people to PAY for this and she’s calling it “art”. These are student pieces. From a lousy student with no potential to improve. Just give this shit to your sister as a half-hearted apology for blasting her in this video. I’m not going to fucking pay for this. I could literally make better pieces than this. Not that I would. I have no fucking use for little ceramic cups.
7:30 – She’s talking about her OnlyFans. So this is all part of her “career” discussion.
She claims it was to “combat my body dysmorphic disorder” and “That has given me more strength than anything I’ve ever done.”
Is she looking at the same pictures that I saw? Some forum posted her pictures. You don’t want to see them. Let’s leave it at that.
“Sometimes I post extremely unflattering photos.”
Those must have been the ones that I saw. All of them. Can you keep the unflattering ones and just post the gems?
She claims to be the only person using OnlyFans for “unsexy purposes.”
Well, I can’t fault her for this one. She’s dead on. There wasn’t anything remotely sexy about these photos. But how does she plan to make money from this?
She claims that this is all part of her therapy. I’d like to have a word with this therapist to confirm if this indeed something that they suggested she do. Because I don’t think that any responsible therapist would say, “In order to treat your BDD, you’re going to have to post revolting pictures on OnlyFans.”
8:45 – Podcasting is another revenue stream that she’s exploring. Eugh. Come on. Nobody is going to listen to this. It’s with her “best friend” Matt and the podcast is called Save Your Game. Let’s look this up. I’m not expecting millions of subscribers.
They have 54 episodes and 712 subscribers. They’ve been doing this for a year. Their most recent video has 96 views. This is not making a penny.
The podcast, in case it needs to be said, is unlistenable. It’s audio only (thank god for small favours) but just…oh my god. The most recent episode starts with this guy (who is CLEARLY gay) in MID-SENTENCE. And the topics are complete shit.
9:00 – “It’s honestly been doing well.”
Are you serious?
“I can’t believe that there are thousands of people who want to listen to me talk about King’s Quest V.”
Maybe that’s a lost episode but the King’s Quest IV video has 260 views on Youtube. Maybe she’s doing gangbusters on Spotify or whatever but, inexplicably, it’s not having an impact on the Youtube channel.
9:15 – “We don’t make any money off of it.”
Indeed.
10:30 – Then she talks about some shitty ass game about feelings and depression…or something. Yeah, that’s what I want to play. Give me the depression simulator game.
11:00 – She’s talking about how society expects you to achieve certain things by certain ages and that you’re never too old to change careers.
But the “career” she’s talking about is this god awful ceramics. If she showed any promise whatsoever in this, I’d say go for it. But look at those fucking little cups. It reminds me of the shit I’d make in Cub Scouts.
This is somebody with no artistic talent. Her drawings are bad, her spin “art” is bad, and her ceramics are bad. Don’t spend any more time or money on this. Do it as a hobby, fine, but who’s going to pay for this complete shit? There are jobs out there. Find one. Enough of this delusional bullshit.
“If I start sculpting with clay now, maybe in 50 years, I will be a clay protegee.”
Yeah. Maybe. But what are you going to do in the meantime? How are you going to support yourself? And let’s be serious, with all of your weight and mental health issues, do you plan on living another 50 years? That’s extremely ambitious. Even her, “What am I going to do five years from now” question struck me as ambitious.
11:30 – She talks about her BlueSky account and that she’s done with Twitter. She’s sticking it to Elon Musk just like Pam aka CannotBeEntertaining.
Apparently, she went to Mexico City recently. She also posted some revolting Frieda Kahlo paintings, perhaps from her trip. Where the fuck is she getting the money for these trips?
I can see the appeal of Frieda Kahlo. That mono-browed woman was also unattractive. But she at least had talent. PushingUpRoses is unattractive and has no talent.
Apparently, people are already bored of this AWFUL ceramics “content”. Why would I want to watch videos of a woman making shitty mugs? There’s no market in this.
She also posts pictures of her lunch.
So that’s the video. No mention of her boyfriend in the video or anywhere on Bluesky so that guy is long gone. She couldn’t fucking shut up about him. She just goes from one bad idea to the next, puts all of her effort into it, it ends up disasterous, and then she moves on to something else.
She’s going to get this pottery wheel and kiln, crank out some shitty ashtrays, and then move on to polka music. She’ll get an accordian, take some classes, realize that she’s shit at this, and then try something else.
Just put the effort into getting a job. I don’t get it. Are jobs that bad? If you start working at Burger King today, just think of how good you’ll be at grilling hamburgers 50 years from now. And they’ll PAY you for that experience. What’s the problem?